I have a glass that cuts me when I drink from it. I know what you’re thinking: “Why don’t you just get rid of it?” Well, lots of reasons…I’ve had it for so long that it’s hard to let go of.It fills that empty space in the cabinet.What would I replace it with? So many…
It’s an interesting thought/feeling to have… In order to be safe, I need my dad to be safe, and in order for him to be safe, I need to be unsafe. It sounds non-sensical, doesn’t it? How can this be logically true? Well, in pure logic terms, it doesn’t work. Ah, it’s funny because dad…
I’ve been sitting on multiple meetings for a while now and I really wanted to be able to pan audio from Teams to one side and Edge to the other. I didn’t have the time to learn about all the requisite APIs, so I asked Claude Code to help me and now I have an…
I bought the LED Glasses Kit from Adafruit along with the LED Glasses, the LED Glasses Driver, and the 3 AAA batteries and it was an interesting project! I thought it was just going to be an easy assembly without any hitches. Fortunately, I was able to work around all the challenges, but it wasn’t…
I’ve been thinking about truth and reality a lot recently. I grew up understanding a particular version of truth, and the version of reality that my brain was prepared to comprehend. (Also, the version of themselves that people were prepared to share with me — I can only process the information that I receive.) One…
I’ve been thinking a lot about regret recently. I regret working so hard to keep things stable for people who didn’t reciprocate. I have an overdeveloped sense of responsibility due to my dad’s underdeveloped sense of responsibility, so I take on way more than is mine in life. And this has pushed out many of…
Today’s inspiration: the slow death of the power user. https://fireborn.mataroa.blog/blog/the-slow-death-of-the-power-user I saw the engineering tenacity first hand at my work. A coworker and I were trying to develop some software. Neither of us was an expert in this specific area, so we painstakingly read the protocol, implemented what we thought it meant, watched network traffic…
I’ve been working through the process of living with the legacy of trauma. The overwhelming, unbearable, and unbelievable thoughts and feelings. For a long time, I tried to push them away so they wouldn’t hurt me. And it worked for a good long while. Then one day, I found that pushing those feelings away was…